Jakarta - Bandung : The Journey Begin

Salam...

Akhirnya hari yang ditunggu2 pun tiba. Flight KLM ke Jakarta akan berlepas pada jam 1710. Hawa akan jemput saya kat rumah lebih kurang dalam pukul 1200 dan akan terus ke Damansara utk menjemput Muun.

Flight Hawa akan berlepas lebih kurang jam 1800 because she is flying with AirAsia.

Aih, xsabar rasanya... Walaupun dah tahap hujung2 bulan ni, duit pun dah tahap surut. Aduhai, xdpt shopping pun xpela.. asalkan dpt jejak kaki kat mana2 tempat best di Bandung tu.

Barang pun xbyk yg dibawa.. gambar sebelah tu bukti.. sy bawak baju dlm 6 helai dan seluar dlm 2 helai.. hahhahah...cukupla kot utk 6hr5mlm kat sana.

Byk jugak pesanan yang sy terima.. alahai, kalau ade berduit lebih kat sana nnt, sy cuba la tunaikan.. sy pun xbwk byk sgt duit.. dah naik risau ni.. hahahha...

Doakan keselamatan saya dan kawan2 ye... semoga kami selamat pergi dan selamat kembali. (feeling2 pergi New York plak).

Adios Amigos!!! Astalavista baybeh!!

Paris Van Java

Salam...

Alamak!! Dah hari Khamis.. preparation tak buat hape pun lagi.. busy dok carik hotel and transport kat Jakarta and Bandung. Alahai, hati berat nak pegi.. masih lagi sedih atas pemergian Ayah. Tapi, xpernah pegi Bandung.
Ok, takpe.. Rasanya, teruskan je perancangan. Mak ngan Bapak pun bagi pegi.

Skang ni dok la ralit nak carik hotel and transport utk di sana nnt. Kalau boleh yg paling mudah, bersih dan murah. Anyway, seperti biasa, inikan back pack.

Aduiii, banyaknya la pilihan hotel. Byk yang mahal2. Yang murah plak kat ceruk mana tah, susah plak transportnya.

Nak pegi hari Sabtu ni.. Apa pun x ready lagi... ARGGHHH!!! Sedikit tensi. Nak2 pulak, duit makin susut.. Aduiii... Cukup ke nak bawak duit banyak ni? (intai2 purse)

Hurmmm, dek sebab dah penat and tensi dok scroll2 mouse and internet, saya decide.....

'KITA WALK IN SAJOOO!!!!'

Yeahh baybeh!!
=D

Wait for me okay!!!




p/s: arini terlepas tgk Twilight : Breaking Dawn sebab ade assesment kat opis. Sangat KECEWA!! Hati Luka!!! Huwwaaaa

Wordless Wednesday

Thanks to Siti Hawa Mohd Adam and Mahathir Bakhir

My Ayah

Salam....

Ayah.. sinonim dengan panggilan utk org tua kita.. tp bg aku, ayah adalah pakcik aku... and today, 21112011, i lost him... dia pergi menghadap Illahi dalam aman...

Pagi ni, aku terjaga pada pukul 6.29 pagi. terpinga2 dan tersentak terjaga sbb ingatkan dah terlambat bangun. Aku set jam pukul 6.30 utk bangun Subuh dan bersiap pegi keje. Time tgh belek2 phone, tiba2 adik aku, Ayu, gegar gril pintu bilik aku sambil jerit 'kakak.. kakak, bangun...'... 'kakak, ayah dah takde...' dia jerit sambil nangis. i was not sure at that time. i was waiting for her to shout again as i am so sure that i heard she scream 'kakak, bapak dah takde...'. i took a deep breathe from the 1st shout, then i listen carefully... and true, its Ayah.. not Bapak. I was so shocked and cried instantly... i dont know whether it was because its not bapak or whatever the reason. but, i do relieved when Ayu said its Ayah but im still deeply sad as Ayah is the next best thing after bapak (father figure) to me.

Ayah, seorang yang sangat pendiam.. tp mudah tertawa dan senyum.. orangnya kurus. garis2 tua jelas diwajahnya. seorang yang kuat... dia berbasikal ke sana ke mari. dialah yang menunggu anak2 dia balik setiap malam. selagi mereka belum sampai, dia xkan tido... ayah, dia ade asthma.. quite serious.. tp jarang dia mengadu sakit... ayah....... kenapa diam je...

Semalam, Ayah pergi kenduri sunat cucu jiran dia. makngah ckp ptg tu ayah pergi mintak ubi kayu kat kawan ayah, katanya teringin nak makan... balik tu, mak ngah ajak pergi kerduri lepas maghrib. sementara tunggu ayah bersiap, mak ngah rebuskan ubi tu. ayah abiskan 4 ketul kata makngah. terus mereka pergi kenduri. ayah makan banyak malam tu. 5 cucuk sate kambing dan nasi impit. ayah jarang makan banyak. diorg berborak smp pukul 12. rancak ayah berborak malam tu. makngah pun xberganjak dari tepi dia.

balik kenduri, ayah sesak nafas. katanya belakang badan dia sakit. dia mintak makngah urut. masa tgh urut ayah, cucu diorg, apis datang cari nenek dia. nak tido sama. ayah ckp, tidokan la apis dulu. makngah tidokan apis smp dia sendiri terlelap. dlm pukul 1230, kak long ckp, apis lari masuk bilik dia. masa tgh kejar apis, dia nampak ayah tgh pam inhaler. semput ayah datang lagi. ayah pandang kak long tp xckp apa2. ayah masuk bilik dan tido sebelah mak ngah. entah bila ayah keluar dari bilik, makngah tak tau. sedar2 pukul 5 pagi, makngah terjaga dan xnmpk ayah kat sebelah dia. makngah keluar bilik dan nmpk ayah tido kat tangga sebelah bilik. bila dipanggil, ayah x menyahut. makngah pegang ayah, badan dia dah sejuk. ayah dah pergi..... tanpa sesiapa pun sedar.... dengan inhaler ditangan... ayah sesak nafas ye.....

ayah pergi selepas Ana (angah) dapat kerja. hari tu hari pertama Ana kerja. kata ana semua berkat doa ayah. masa ana balik kerja, ayah senyum je. suka agaknya ayah... pastu ayah perasan kaki ana bengkak. mungkin sbb byk berdiri. ayah nak urut, tp ana ckp xpe, xsakit pun...ptg tu jugak, hari pertama rumah ayah dipasang Astro oleh Erny (4th). Ayah sempat tgk bola kat Astro tu dan ayah menunggu nak tgk wrestling. Suka betol ayah masa tu... Ayah pergi lepas minum sesudu ubat yg Isur (3rd) beli. Monavie yang Isur beli 2 botol utk ayah pon dah hampir habis sebotol. ayah pergi lepas merasa ubi rebus yang mak ngah buat... ayah senyum je.. tp xsiapa tau, ayah pergi lepas tu... Ayah pergi lepas dia merasa sikit2 apa yang diberi oleh anak2nya... ayah bukan orang senang... ayah byk berjimat... ayah tukang kayu yang hebat... ayah seorang yg lemah lembut. baik orangnya.... ayah yang akan dirindui selalu....

ayah, siapa nak bagi usie duit raya lagi....? ayah, maafkan segala salah silap usie....... ayah, haritu usie nampak orang naik basikal tepi jalan. usie ingatkan ayah, bila tgk lama2 bukan ayah... ayah, usie patut talipon ayah masa tu..... ayahhhhhhhhh....... usie dah takde ayah dah.....

ayah, semadilah kamu disana dengan tenang. kami sentiasa mendoakanmu, Ayah...

ayah, kami akan cuba jaga famili ayah... ayah jangan risau ye... kami semua ada....

in memory of Ayah, Mr Nurdin bin Ahmad

Luahan Hati di Hari Minggu

Salam...

entry kali ni, xde yang begitu menarik. cuma ingin luahkan sedikit perasaan hati. i went out for a collegue's wedding yesterday and for a movie afterwards. on our back home, i share a bit about what i have been thru in my working days and also the so-called-bff who turns out to be a real backstabber. and yes, i am still friends with them and they were all around me. dan tiba2 my friends yang sedang hantar saya balik ni, bercerita ttg org yg pernah menjaja cerita pasal saya. ramai katanya dan bila saya tanya siapa org2 tu, my friends were too hesitant to reveal. i mean, why? these people are talking and spreading false story about me and i dont have the right to know? oh, come on!!! dan sy keluar kereta tu dgn rasa sgt2 sedih dan devastated. rasa macam benci sangat kat kawan2 sy sbb mendengar cerita tu tanpa explanation dari saya sendiri dan buat judgment sendiri. eventhough they say, now they know that all the stories were wrong and i was the victim. but, damage done. susah jadi org sensitif macam saya....

people misunderstood me a lot. and i do mean a LOT. just because im not easy to approach, that i have a fierce-face, people tend to believe one-side story. not many of them who listen to the gossip, came to me and ask about the truth from me. they prefer to make their own speculation.

and me? i let them be.. first, its not that i dont want to make an explanation, but i dont know to whom shall i do that. 2nd, i dont know that there was a rumours going on about me. i mean, ME? 3rd, i am normally the last person to know about gossip. funny to know, but its the truth. i am the last person and maybe i am the only person who did not know about the gossip. come along my story.. mmg xtau pape pun. unless someone told me about it.

and so, i expect kalau ade cerita buruk pasal saya dihebahkan, bgtau la kat saya.. senang saya face-to-face dgn pembawa berita. mungkin dia pun dgr2 dari orang je... dan sy berhak menerangkan hal sebenar dari pihak saya. drpd diam sahaja, dan terus membiarkan saya berkawan rapat dgn dia sdgkan dia terus2an menjaja cerita saya... sy ade hak jugak. patutkan org2 yang diam dan mendengar cerita itu sy anggap kawan?

serius saya sangat sedih... sedih bila dikelilingi oleh org2 mcm ni.. as i said before, i was misunderstood for many times.. and rasanya this wont be the last. doa saya, semoga mereka yang mendengar cerita2 saya, dtg utk clarification pada saya... tak susah pon.. sbb muka garang ni will stay forever as this is Allah gift. lagipun sy ttp manusia...

i love everybody and i forgive everybody. hope they do the same too.. insyaAllah...

Allah knows best. Allah knows me......

Ombak Rindu

Lagu ni memang menyentuh jiwa pada saat ni... sob sob sob

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

Tuhan, aku tahu banyak dosaku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala dukaku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya ‘tuk cintaku

Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dariku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hujan bawa air mataku
Yang mengalir membasuh lukaku
Agar dia tahu ku tersiksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hanya mampu berserah
Moga cahaya tiba nanti

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

nyanyian: Hafiz & Adira

I AM MALAYSIAN WITH INDONESIAN BLOOD

Well, rasanya xbanyak yang perlu diolah dari tajuk kat atas.

i think most of my friend knew about it. tgk nama pun tau rasanya. yupp, im a malaysia-born child. and so the rest of my siblings.

i've been facing difficulties in ways of racism. Lucky me, i was blessed with a bit of good brain. hahaha... i score in almost all the subject in primary and secondary school, and because of that many people wants to be my friends. but i have also been called 'indon', 'pendatang haram' and so on..

well, enough said, i have survive throughout this years. and i bet my sis and bros too. thanks to the hard work of our parents, kami x bodoh.. they make sure we got the best education ever. they sent me to english tuition classes because they cant speak english. and wallah, im good at it now. thanks mom!

sebenarnya, saya nak cerita pasal bola malam tadi between mas and ind (sea games). a lot of
people updating the stories in twitter, fb and bbm. and there was i, feels torn apart (nak sokong Malaysia, mak+bapak dok jeling2, nak sokong indonesia, adik2 dah wat muka kekwat, then howww la???!!!). which country to choose. hahahah, its a simple choice actually. my heart always go to Malaysia, a country that i have known for the rest of my life. i spent hari raya in Gombak, KL for 29 years in a row now. insyaAllah, kalau ada rezeki, tahun depan (2012) we will be celebrating Eid ulFitr in Merak, Indonesia. Kalau ade rezeki lebih la.. setakat ni, tiket utk 11 org dah dibeli (8 sibs + mom&dad + sis in law). ya Allah, please make it smooth and happen for us. Aminnnn... meh doakan sama2, 1st time ni nak balik indonesia utk berhari raya. demi bapak!

(wpun, last2 tgk bola menjerit suka sbb Malaysia menang! Hurrah!!)


anyway, just want to tell you guys, that last nite soccer is not the 1st game that i felt torn apart. in sports, mas and indo were always an enemy. i will always support Malaysia and Indonesia. tak payah nak tunjuk racisism sangat. Most of Malaysian pun ade darah Indonesia. tak percaya, go and dig in your roots balik. kita semua serumpun laaaaa...

jom salam-salam. xbaik gaduh-gaduh. makan gado-gado lagi asyik!!!

My Best Boy Friend

I'm kinda of a shy girl. those who knew me, knows that i dont talk to boys as much as them. But, it will be a talk-a-thon once i feel comfort with the boys.

however, there is a boy that i can called as my best boy' friend. i knew him for the past 6 years. he was my team mates back when we are a CSE. Together, we excell and promoted to a higher positions. He always jealous when a man approaches me. He tried very hard to protect me. He made me smile. He annoys me all the time. He's the reason im happy. He's also the reason i want to be a murderer.

We've been close friends up to the limit where people keeps telling that we are together when we are actually not. He is constantly having a girlfriends and keeps on breaking up, mostly he said because of me. i dont know what he meant but he keeps on stressing that he will only be with those who accepts me as his best friends.

i've tried to put myself a bit far from him when i knew that he is seeing this one Malay girl. but then again i was being scolded by him and he left the girl because he said she is the reason im parting away from him. little that he knows, i do that coz i love him so dear that i want him to be happy with whatever choices he made. he is my best friend!

people might think we are together, but let me explain, we are not. stop the speculation. stop the gossip. yes, we use to have the same model of handphones and also car (yes, we have the same black Myvi. but he got the SE ones!). Theres a lot of same interest that we shares. We love Kenny Rogers Roasters and also his new things is Tutti Fruitti. and of course, he blame me for all those kinky stuff he likes... Cehhhh!!!

he is funny. he is stupid. he always blaming himself for all the bad things happen to me.
he annoys me a lot. he is sincere. he is an idiot. he knows i miss him a lot, and keep asking whether i miss him and force me to say it every time he called. he is an a**. he is work oriented. stupid with girls. idiots when it comes to love. he is kind hearted.

i called him a few days ago (been trying to call him for the past one week but to no avail). he answers, i (whom was in full grudge coz he did not answers my call for the past 1 week) was relieved. on 1st day i called him and he did not answers, i was thinking he might be working (he's working in Spore). 2nd day, i thought he must have a gf and forget about me.
3rd day, OMG, HE IS DEAD!!! 4th day, is it true he is dead? and the dead drama continues till the 7th day. i was thinking to call his parents if i cant reach him on the 8th day. Thank God he answers me. i was in full anger for the past 7 days. he asked me why i called, that i must be missing him... i was in silence for almost 15 seconds and i said i will call him later. something urgent i need to tell him. but, knowing him, he is not gonna wait. so, i stumble... i took a deep breath and the i say 'i want your mailing address as im going to mail you my wedding card' (by the way, i was kidding). i was waiting for whatever he may say, but all i hear is silence and its going on for almost 2 mins. we both keep silence and then i say 'hello, are you there?'. and suddenly all i hear is his sigh. why the hell is he doing that. and not long after that, he starts bombing me with all the question. 'is this a joke?'. 'with who?'. 'why now?'. and the list went on and on. and i surrender and says i was joking. but, the babbling went on as there is no sign of stopping. and i was feeling a bit regret making up the stories. hahahaha... but overall, im happy to know that he is still alive and that he still concern about me. the truth is i love seeing him being and acting awkward.

Anyway, enough about him. If ever he read this blog, i just want him to know that i will always his best friends, come what may. I will always miss him. I will always support him. Thank you for all the kindness.. thank you for all the love... =D